Thursday, May 13, 2010

Born to be Broken. But NEVER defeated! INTRO

It's been about a week now since my first entry. By no means have things gotten any easier for me, but my heart feels alive again. Something I lost as a child. I never thought I would come to a point in my life where I was ready to talk about all of this. But here I am, vulnerable, yet not ashamed, Scared, yet filled with a fire that will not allow me to be defeated. I am stronger than I thought. We all are. It is part of our genetic makeup. Fight or Flight. I was flying for 24 years but not anymore. I am master of this ring, knocking out anything that gets in the way of me healing.
In my entry "The fear has subsided" I was initially going to talk about how I felt revealing my story for the first time. I found myself then talking about the first time I was ever abused. As horrific as it may seem, two separate individuals getting their slimy tentacles on me in one day. I want to tell the rest. There is so much more, 14 years worth of crime. I have a voice, IT WILL BE HEARD!
So in the coming days, weeks, or however long it takes me to open up completely I am going to start a little "Mini Blog Series" Don't know how many episodes there will be, but I will finish. I can not reiterate this enough "I AM NOT AFRAID ANYMORE". My pain will not be in vain.

1 comment:

  1. It takes 1 minute to destroy a childs life and a life time to try to heal from it. You are not alone in this world. Thank you for your posts.